Day 11

Last couple of days have been a struggle for both of us. Think we are in agreement that the cambridge diet is much easier while you're at work and busy even if in kels case there is temptation its much easier to stay strong in front of other people. But at home I definitely feel weaker and we both are quite whingey and moany (sorry Kel!!) Lewis's pizza last night was complete torture - deep pan pepperoni mmmm. So i cut a small disc of pepperoni in half so we could both have a tiny something and we chewed that little morsel to death. It was amazingly delicious! I tasted it much more than would have in the past.
I'm really struggling with quitting smoking. I have started everyday as a fresh day being a non-smoker but everytime I've had a visit from a smoker I've pinched a fag. and last night had a few of kel's. Ok so I've only had a bout 10 in 4 days but still its not quitting is it! And right now i really really want one and its making me VERY GRUMPY. Not a very pleasant or effective saleswoman today! In fact customers beware especially if I can smell smoke on you!
on a positive note according to my scales i have lost a pound a day the last few days so thats good.
Have been reading lots of good cambridge diet blogs which are keeping me motivated. The latest one i have found http://cambridge-diet-08.blogspot.com
the writer has been drinking 5l of water on average a day so think I'll try upping mine and see what happens - i probably have about 3l tops. Its worth a try!

Effects of not smoking

today is my 4th day not smoking. Feel really pleased with myself and have found it really easy - I havent been around anyone smoking yet tho - kel has been going outside. Starting to get the bad physical effects now - coughing up the crap on my lungs. but i know its only temporary because i've given up for long long periods before so i know that the good bit is round the corner - no more breathlessness, no more heavy leg feeling and tons more energy. Just got to get thru the phlegm stage!

Munch Goals

This is what I am going to achieve by stopping smoking and doing the Cambridge diet. I was feeling a bit demotivated so thought it might help to have a clear list of my goals and stages of weight loss.

The reason I will continue to be a non-smoker and Cambridge dieter is:

• To have enough energy, to be able to breathe well enough and to have a small enough body to be able to do anything I want and enjoy life as much as possible.
• To learn - to ride a horse, a martial art, yoga.
• To be in control of food rather than it control me.
• To understand my addictions and have strength to overcome them
• to take Kel and Lew to Alton Towers and us all be able to go on what we want.
• To go swimming with Lew more often.
• To inspire/motivate/empower Kel to quit smoking and so reduce the risk of Lew starting to smoke.
• To be able to buy cheap clothes because can buy them in any shop
• To never start smoking ever again.

Step by Step Goals

• To reduce BMI to 50 (done 25/08/08), 45 (done 28/9/08), 40, 35, 30 then 25 then re-assess target weight goal
• To be under 20 stone, under 15 stone, target weight

Day 1 - by Munch

Bl**dy hell can't believe I'm doing this diet - its drastic and difficult! I'm really proud I'm committing to it though - 1 day done quite a lot more to go!

Had cappuccino shake warm with coffee for breakfast, butterscotch for lunch and oriental soup for tea. Got to say very impressed with the flavours - all really nice. Prefer the soup to the shakes so far so next week might have soups for lunches.

Didn't feel full after any of the 'meals' hope like other people have said that I will after a couple of days. Drank loads of very very diluted cordial as agreed with CDC which did take the edge off the hunger. In total think i had about 3.5 litres.

Managed okay not smoking - had hunger pangs and cravings for food more than fags. Probably because i know i can give up smoking - I've done brilliantly before - this time need to not start again lol! That's how i'm thinking about it - as of now i am a non-smoker - why would a 34 year old obese woman decide to start smoking? That's what i need to keep asking myself if i feel desperate for a fag. lmao - check out Alan Carr.

Mood wise I was okay most of the day - got a bit nasty later on in the evening because felt drained but cheered up when Kel came home from work.

Happy Campers

Hooray - we're off on our holibobs tonight! 3 days in Moelfre in Anglesey in a tent! Not exactly a luxury hols but hey beggars cant be choosers. The weather is gorgeous today so fingers crossed it stays like this coz don't fancy putting the tent up in the rain - its bad enough we cant leave till 5 since I'm working. Its quite good though really - Kel has had the week off which means she's been at home doing all the organising and packing while my contribution so far is to remind her to pack my phone charger!

I'm taking 3 books with me - the Alan Carr Stop Smoking book , Amanda Hamilton/ Sandy Newbigging Life Changing Weightloss and a cheapy crime novel from Asda.

My intention is to stop smoking and start the Cambridge Diet on Monday when we come back home! Talk about aiming high! So next week i'll have post holiday blues, and nicotine and sugar withdrawal - mmmm i'm going to be such a lovely person - poor poor Kel and Lew!