day 60!

who'd have thunk it! Us two foodies (that's me being polite - what i mean is fatties) have done a vlcd for 60 days! I'm very proud of us both, yes we have had struggles when our food addict gremlins have shown up and maybe the odd bit of chicken has been eaten when it shouldn't but on the whole we have been bloomin fantastic. Yea us!

I'm getting excited now about add a meal next week. We've worked out the menu and imagined each meal (A LOT!) I feel much better this time round. The run up to the last aam i was in a state of pure panic! I know now though that i will be able to eat what we have planned and not overeat, not pick after the meal has gone and even better i know that once the week is over i will be totally able to stop and continue with another 4 weeks of ss-ing. I guess the fear i had last time was due to my feeling of ss being rehab - total abstinence is safe, ketosis means hunger is a very brief and fleeting thing and the lack of food choices means the lack of food 'issues'. But reintroducing food however limited surely would bring all the negative stuff with it? I was as surprised as anyone that at the end of each meal i felt full, satisfied and elated that i had some control over food. And come the sunday night and time to get ready for ss-ing for another 4 weeks i was fine and had no need to read the lecture I'd written myself the week before anticipating mega tantrums.

I'm starting to miss our little man a bit today - he's in Tunisia with my mum. He's told me to tell everyone he's in North Africa - apparently that's way more impressive! I don't know - any foreign destination sounds good to me, i haven't been abroad for 5 years! Funnily enough thats how long we have had the shop! in fact except for my illness last year I've never had more than 3 consecutive days off work lol
Mum and i had a chat before she went away and she has committed to letting me take a whole week off next year either the may hols or Easter. I am determined that we should get a last minute cheapo holiday abroad. Kel isn't as sold on the idea - she sees every penny spent as a lost opportunity to save for the wedding!

Talking of saving money I still haven't stopped smoking, kel and mum have been non smokers ages now - very naughty Munch. Made an appt with smoking cessation woman at the village chemist (for some bloody stupid reason my doctors don't do it) when i got there she had gone home ill. Tried to rebook it yesterday, took me a day or so to stop fuming, and was told she has now gone on holiday till November - honest to god! that is a well good enough reason to puff away in my opinon! No i am going to stop - spending an £5 a day on cancer sticks is ridiculous. I've got an appt with the doc on Monday anyway (i want to show him i've lost 4 stone so that when i go having lost 14 stone and need a tummy tuck he wont be too surprised lol) so I'm going to ask him if he'll prescribe champix coz its worked on mum and kel. We'll see what he says - i didn't think much of him but I've only seen him once so I'll give it a go.
wow that was a bit of a long post - sorry!

Back in Blighty!

rundown of Lew's 12Th Birthday Anglesey Camping Holiday

• Thursday night - stopped on way to have a subway meatball marinara because we'd always wanted one and this would be our last chance!! OMG sooo delicious. Arrived Moelfre put tent up - got a bit wet but not too bad. I love camping - love our king size airbed and the fresh air. Love sitting outside the tent on posh plastic chairs and drinking wine.


• Friday - visited Penrhyn castle Kel's fav place - lew and I loved it. Best Bits - the audio tour, the Folly by the pet cemetery, the bog garden and the afternoon cream tea! Later went to benllech beach had doughnuts and watched lew throw himself in and out of the sea - it looked freezing! Had fish and chips at the tent - perfect!
  


• Saturday - OMG what happened to the weather?? It was like camping from hell - mad mad wind blew the tent in on itself and lashed rain everywhere. Tried to stay inside the tent holding up the sides (hilarious) but gave up because getting drenched so sat in car watching all hell break loose on campsite! By mid morning we realised that no way could any of the beds dry off in time even if we could put up with the top of the tent blowing in right down to the floor! Put the tents down in the p*ssing down rain - never been wetter in our lives! We couldn't stop laughing - Kel couldn't see at all - glasses no good in sooo much rain! Our motto (stolen from Run's House) Team work makes the dream work has never been truer - how we don't fall out and argue is amazing lol

Drove off Anglesey hoping weather might be a bit better - we were wrong! Found a B&B in Caenarvon for £30 for a family room for the night. Checked out Dinas Dinlle beach where Kel used to stay when very young and on way back had stunning home made burgers in an expensive pub!

Money becoming scarce!

• Sunday - Lew opened all his pressies - very happy boy! Had amazing cooked breakfast then had lovely time at Caernarfon Castle - lew enjoyed himself once he was persuaded to be a bit independent. I Got very scared being so huge inside very tiny narrow stairwells and terrified coming back down the turrets. Thought about coming back next year when been on the Cambridge diet would be a good idea - would probably notice a big difference in experience. Went back to the Island in the afternoon so Lew could spend more time on the beach - fab day for all of us very chilled. Made our way home around 6 but decided to use the old historic route through the mountains instead of the boring A55 .

• Got home quite late - had very last Chinese meal and last fag before life changes tomorrow! feeling very nervous as well as excited! Bring it on!
  The good life here we come!